Tuesday, September 10, 2013

{6, 7, 8, 9 & 10}

So my first weekend on the challenge was rough
I stayed up late watching the Great Gatsby
Good movie...wouldn't say my favorite but, it was good.
And then the next day we watched Now You See Me
GREAT movie!
Seriously did not see the twist
but everyone says that.
I did fairly good with eating until my brother left
then I hopped on the computer
(He left at about noon)
Next thing I knew it was 6 o clock!
Oy...Technology is so addicting.
So basically I ate breakfast and dinner on Saturday.
Not good for my metabolism.
Then I spent the weekend trying to catch up...
I didn't work out on Saturday either.
I am a bad example:(
Then yesterday on my night alone
I indulged on some graham crackers and milk...
I broke my 2 week record so now I must start all over.
So basically I decided that I am not really going to tell you everything I ate
its going to get so boring
so I'll just tell you that I
ate about 1400 calories today
I did Pure Cardio and then Core Attack from Combat!
I was dripping in sweat!!!
So over a 552 calories
(light housework included in there)
And I am feeling pretty proud of myself.
Tomorrow I am heading down to my parents ward
Relief Society
Ice cream and cake social.
Apparently daughters are invited and my Mom invited me:)
I'm not going to turn down spending time with my mom!
Although I am walking into a danger zone
I have come up with a game plan..
first I am calling a double dip Wednesday
I am doing insanity and pump in the morning
More calories burned=more calories to eat!
instead of just going into it saying I'm not going to have anything
I am thinking about bringing either
a Shakeology
allowing myself a very small piece of cake and 1 scoop of ice cream.
I haven't fully decided...
I am excited to get out of the house though!
The hubby is babysitting
good luck hunny;)
jk I know he'll do a fabulous job.
Anyways I'll let you know how it goes!

Tonight for dinner we had Healthy Burritos
So easy
Black beans, cheddar cheese, 1 green pepper, 1 red pepper, tomatoes and a tortilla.
Pile on tortilla
(I'm too tired and lazy to actually write down how much you put on)
Microwave for a few seconds and Viola!
It really does taste good trust me!
My carnivore hubby even said so:)

5 Things:
1. I love my facial animation
2. I love my small ears:)
3. I love my calloused feet ( they show my years of dance.
 I worked hard for them callouses so that I could turn barefoot!)
4. I love my smile
5. I love my tendency to worry. Even though it can get in the way of having fun sometimes...
I feel that its good to think things through most of the time before you jump in.

Thursday, September 5, 2013


Holy cow this week is just flying by
I had a weak moment yesterday and I indulged on
a couple Austin Crackers with Peanut Butter:)
But I still stayed in the green with my calories so I feel like that
was an accomplishment.
So How are you all doing?
Is anyone challenging themselves to be healthier out there?
I am feeling pretty good although
I am pretty tired right now.
I did wake up at 6!!!
Score for me!
I never ever wake up right after the alarm goes off...
But today I did
Which is pretty surprising because me and the hubs
 stayed up late watching a move:)
Yoga kicked my booty
I felt strong last week doing it and this time I felt
like a sucker
Some of the positions just plain hurt!
Which is why I want to do it...
to increase my flexibility
So I will keep at it!
Today I am also feeling pretty hungry!
Must be doing something right...
I am hoping its a sign that my metabolism is speeding up
and not a sign of not eating enough!
I'll just drink some more water.
So here is what I ate today:
Bet you can already guess...
Breakfast: Whole wheat English muffin, two eggs hard boiled minus one yolk, and peanut butter.
(312 calories)
Morning Snack: Greek yogurt, 1 tsp honey, and flack seed.
(97 calories)
Lunch: Shakeology with a cup of milk, 1/2 banana and ice
(270 calories)
Afternoon snack: Ants on a log
(234 calories)
Dinner: Pump Spaghetti and Meatballs with a side of steamed broccoli
(406 calories)
The recipe for the meatballs goes as follows...
Per 3 oz of meat
Ground turkey 3 oz
1 egg white
2 Tbsp breadcrumbs
Preheat oven to 350. Combine ingredients in a bowl & form into 3 small meatballs.
Bake on cookie sheet for about 15 minutes.
So super easy and very delicious.
We make up to 1 pound of turkey and my husband eats a lot plus he has left overs:)
All of that adds up to 1375 calories today
353 extra calories earned from yoga and my walk this evening.
Okay so I am trying to watch how much sugar I eat.
The my fitness pal has me at a goal of
31 grams of sugar daily and
I'm always going over...
today I went 37 grams over and I am hardly eating any fruit...
Does anyone else find this ridiculous or know if that is accurate?
I mean the only thing that I am eating really that has added sugar in it would be my Shakeology
(because its chocolate and because its deliciously good)
but that only has 6 Grams of sugar in it...
The rest comes from other sources...
its just crazy
I think I'll do some Internet research and see what I can find out.
5 Things:
1. I love that I am emotional. I love that I can emphasize with others so well.
2. I love that I can dance around the house!
3. I love my shoulders.. They are a good shape.
4. I love that my hair is in fact getting longer...as my husband so lovingly pointed out...
"hair does grow Sarah" haha got to love him!
5. I love that I have the opportunity to be a stay at home mom!
Shout out to my hubby who works so hard for us!!! 
One more day 'til STAT-URDAY
Hopefully there is some progress!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


Today my body is super tired
I think we need a newer bigger bed:)
Me and my husband sleep on a full so there really isn't much room to move
Oh well. At least we didn't have to pay for it:)
Any who...
So I am getting better at getting up
although I didn't arise at 6 like I need to
I woke up at about 6:45 ish
but, after watching Dr. Oz today I realize the importance of sleep
when it comes to health
Not only does under sleeping affect your health
Oversleeping does as well!!
I realized that I am an over sleeper right now
I could easily sleep for 9-10 hours a night!
This could lead to weight gain and other diseases
So I am going to make a point to not hit the snooze in the morning!
Plus I really cant because I'll be doing
which is an hour and a half long work out!
So we are putting an end to that bad habit now.
Anyways here is what I ate today...
Breakfast: The usual
Mrning snack: 1/2 cup Greek Yogurt, Flack seeds and honey.
(100 calories)
Lunch: Shako with strawberries
Afternoon Snack: Ants on a log
Dinner: Dinner Omelet!! ( Yum)
Here is the recipe
(once again super easy and super delicious)
3 egg whites
1 egg
1 C. Baby Spinach
1/4 cup feta cheese
(mix together and fry)
Serve with English muffin or slice of whole wheat bread
with all fruit spread:)
(348 cals)
All together I ate 1385 calories today
I kept it on the low side because I did Pump and only burned around
156 calories
a short half hour walk
128 calories
Pump kicked my booty today
I felt like I might puke and I had sweat in my eyes!
I felt awesome!!!
So far I'm not doing so good on my water but, the day is still young!
2 more days 'til STAT-URDAY!
1. I love my small fingers
2. I love my hair ( I can't wait till its longer though)
3. I love my eyes
4. I love that I have the ability to work out. That my body is capable.
5. I love my smile!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013


Here we go with Day 3
Today was kinda rough on my self esteem
It was just one of those days where I just feel huge
even though I know I don't look any different than I did yesterday.
Which is kind of interesting because
I usually feel really thin after doing insanity
It must be because I nearly died...
I lost all of the endurance I had built
so now its time to get that back!
Hopefully I will feel better about myself tomorrow:)
Here is what I ate..
Breakfast: Same as yesterday:)
Morning snack: Same again:)
Lunch: Shakeology with just a banana today
Afternoon snack: "Ants on a log"
My husband swears that EVERYONE knows what that is
but, I hadn't heard of them until he told me about it.
So for those of you "sheltered" people like me
its celery with peanut butter and raisins!
 Its pretty darn good!
(334  cals)
Dinner: Insanity Turkey Burgers and green beans
(301 cals)
All together that's 1502 calories for the day
I have been doing really well at meeting all of my goals so far!
Of course that all could change because we're only 3 days in...
For exercise it was INSANITY Plyometric Cardio Circuit
I'm unsure of how many calories I burned the my fitness pal
doesn't have that type of exercise in its database.
The closest thing I could find is High Impact Aerobics
and going by that I only burned 315 cals
I'm 90% sure that I burned more than that...
but oh well...I'll take what I can track:) 

Monday, September 2, 2013


Okay guys I've almost made it through day two!
So here's what I ate
Breakfast: English muffin, natural PB, a hard boiled egg and 1 egg white.
(312 Cals)
Mid-morning snack: 1 cup of Zoi Greek yogurt {Plain fat-free} with a tsp of honey
and 1/8 cup of almonds.
(250 cals)
Lunch: Turkey and cheese sandwhich
(327 cals)
Afternoon snack: Wheat thin crackers, turkey and cheese
(275 cals)
Dinner: Shakeology with milk and strawberries
(350 cals)
SIDE NOTE: I'm pretty sure you are going to have what I eat memorized...
I eat the same thing pretty much everyday...
Which could get boring for most but, I read somewhere that
when trying to loose weight its actually helpful because you
how many calories you're eating for a fact.
So to save you the boredom however, I'll probably just start saying
something like I ate the usual:)
All together that's 1514 calories.
Yeah this is not a starve myself for 60 days type of thing:)
I have actually really been struggling with eating enough.
My inner anorexic is killing me...
I did a month of INSANITY before this and I was getting really frustrated
because I wasn't really loosing weight...
Then I looked at the nutrition guide and I found out that I was supposed to be eating
1700-1900 cals a day!!
I was only eating about 1200...
WAY under
Which by the way is just as bad as overeating.
The main program I am doing now recommends 1400 cals
I am going to meet somewhere in the middle.
Now I bet you all are wondering what I am doing for exercise?
I am doing a hybrid of sorts
with yoga once or twice a week:)
I am pretty sure everyone knows what INSANITY is so here is a video of PUMP
Since I am trying to focus more on how I look rather than weight
I felt it would be good to build and tone.
Its true that muscle weighs more than fat but its also a lot more lean.
 And lean is good!
Today I did Pump and Shred
45 minutes of lifting and squatting!
According to my fitness pal I burned
156 cals
But the good thing about weight training is you
 to burn throughout the day!
I also cleaned the house which I count as moderate exercise:)
2 hours of that gives me 337 calories burned
So far so good!
Tomorrow I get my dose of Shaun T!
I am hecka nervous because I might die!!!
Okay here is the scary part of this post...
Weight: 148.6
BF weight: 40.4
BF %: 27%
Chest: 36"
L Arm: 11 3/8"
R Arm: 11 3/8"
Waist: 32"
L Leg: 21 3/8"
R Leg: 21"
Hips: 41'
I would post pictures but, my camera broke...Go figure!
1. I like my smile
2. I love my hair although its thin, I love that its straight!
3. I love that I love to have fun and dance around the house
4. I love my small forearms ( that's for my hubby)
5. I love my curvy figure
Final side note my heart truly goes out to the family of Sgt. Johnson!
I flat out bawled when I watched the news yesterday...
And I almost had a freak out because my hubby was 2 hours late from work! HA!
Here I am telling everyone knowing that he'll be safe and then one day it all goes away!
I really am a loony!
See ya'll tomorrow:)

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Day Uno

So I started my Challenge a couple days late
I was having an emotional couple of days because of my last post.
So I allowed myself some time to recoup...
But good news is I should be ending my challenge on Halloween
The bad news I already have some big challenging days ahead of me :S
So I am already planning ahead for how I will handle them.
Here are my goals for the week:
1.No graham crackers and milk.
 (This is a big temptation of mine esp. on Mondays..
No husband. While the cats away the mice will play!
My dear husband is very good at his job of holding me accountable)
2. Drink 6 bottles of water a day. This will equal about 120 oz.
3. Only sleep 8 hours a night. Lately I've been sleeping so much at night.
Oversleeping is just as bad for you as not sleeping enough when it comes to loosing weight.
4. Exercise EVERYDAY. Something I already kind of do but, I have missed a couple days lately.
5.Track what I eat everyday.
Notice how none of my goals include loosing a certain amount of pounds?
I saw a video that really woke me up
 to the fact that measuring your success on the scale alone
just isn't the best.
So I've set some obtainable goals
If I loose weight..
If not I will feel successful by meeting these goals daily.
Along with weekly goals I am setting some goals I want to obtain by the end of September.
They are so far...
1. 20 boy push ups
2. Hold the plank for 5 min.
I'm pretty sure I'll be adding to those.
So with this challenge every Saturday I'll be posting some stats...
So I'll be able to keep myself motivated that I am making some changes.
Alright enough about goals!
Here is what I ate/will eat today.
First of all its fast Sunday so obviously I skipped breakfast and my mid morning snack
Lunch: Shakeology with frozen strawberries, half a banana and some milk
(385 calories)
English muffin with Jiff Natural peanut butter
(225 calories)
for a total of 610 calories all together:)
Afternoon snack: Wheat thins, Swiss cheese and a slice of turkey. My grown up lunchables:)
Plus a little bit of almonds
(377 calories)
Dinner: Insanity style Turkey burgers!!!
This is seriously the easiest recipe!
4 oz of ground turkey
2 Tbsp salsa
2 Tbsp red onion, chopped
(mix it all together and form into a patty. Grill or broil until cooked through.)
Served on an English muffin
with some green beans on the side.
(301 calories)
I'll follow dinner up with a walk with my favorite little boy and possibly my husband:)
So far I am only up to 2 bottles of H2O...better start drinking!
 Tomorrow I'll post some beginning stats...
I haven't stepped on the scale in weeks.
Time to face the music!
See Ya'll tomorrow!

Oh real quick my five things!!!
1. I love my eyes!
2. I love my straight teeth that my parents so lovingly paid for:)
3. I love my small nose
4. I love my laugh. Even though its really loud and embarrassing sometimes
5. I love my ghetto booty
...I think I could be a bit smaller but, at least I don't have a flat one like Miley!

Friday, August 30, 2013

Coming Clean

Its true what they say that everything in retrospect is 20/20
Looking back at these past few years I have realized some things about myself
I only hope that I can say the things I want to say publicly
in a way that is clear and to the point.
(Warning: This will be a really long post...I have a lot I need to get off my chest.)
 I have few regrets about my life but the biggest regret I have 
is wishing that I had taken my health more seriously in my youth.
I wasn't an overweight kid and as a child I was always active.
Once I became a teenager is when I started to struggle with my weight and self image. 
Besides dancing I never had any physical activity.
I ate like crap
All the time
I had good examples around me...
all of the girls that I envied so much
They would exercise and eat right.
I remember one of my dance teachers telling me
exercising and eating right
were key steps to being a better dancer.
I remember thinking to myself that I needed to do that
I just didn't know where to start.
I was just oblivious to all the people around me that could have helped.
My best friend 
Was a marvelous example to me when we met at Snow College.
She would exercise everyday 
I had opportunities to exercise with her but hardly took them..
She would however cook me the healthiest meals 
and it was her that taught me that 
having flat abs is more about what you eat than what you do to exercise.
Of course exercise is very important.
I am very grateful to her for many reasons but, for the kindness 
she showed me during those times really stand out.
I gained weight in college
everyone basically does...
some more than others
I will be the first to admit that I really enjoyed a bowl of ramen
every day:)
But my weight didn't really skyrocket until after Snow...
When I stopped dancing
(No more activity)
During that time my self esteem really dropped.
I wasn't surrounding myself with the type of people that helped that
they actually kind of did the opposite.
They were fun to be around but, I was pretty much numb to how truly unhappy I was.
I was really overweight and I was trying to date
I joined LDS singles where my best friend at the time found the love of her life
and I mainly found guys that just wanted to make out with me or
 do other things that I wasn't willing to do.
I couldn't believe that was all I could find out there in the world.
(20/20 hindsight: I was only finding people that were like me with zero confidence in themselves.)
I firmly believe that you attract people that are just like you.
Finally a few years later I joined Weight Watchers with my mommy.
I started to learn how much eating healthy
and with that I lost 27 pounds!!!
I gained my confidence back and I started making really good friends
and I met the love of my life:)
Then something happened that would kill any self image I had of myself at that moment.
(Cue Moulin Rouge soundtrack: Jealousy, yes jealousy will drive you....MAD!)
That song is so true.
I remember everything about that fateful evening.
I was going to meet my wonderful boyfriend during his rehearsal of Footloose the Musical.
The cast was practicing in the basement of a local bank in Magna.
I was so nervous because I knew that his ex would be part of the cast
I was worried about her judging me...
My self esteem had been slightly regained but I wasn't exactly the most confident of people.
I was already shaking as I made my way downstairs.
There she was
this petite blond
and there I was...
not a petite
not a blond.
I started to cry
'How could anyone get over a girl like that?'
That's the thought that would haunt me for quite some time...
I didn't stop crying in the hall by myself even after the rehearsal got out.
She even walked past and gave me a very cool "Hey.."
I hated her...but I knew that if I were to keep my boyfriend I had to be more like her...
Because for some reason I had completely forgotten how amazing I am
within minutes.
My jealousy of her sparked many arguments with my boyfriend
(who thankfully stuck it out and married me)
and finding out more about her started to consume my life.
Two words
Facebook Stalk
Everyone pretty much does it and I shamefully admit that...
I'll be completely honest I checked her Facebook wall daily
sometimes multiple times a day...
You know in Mean Girls when she talks about how she started talking about Regina all the time
and the other times she'd pray that someone would bring her up into conversations
so that she could talk about her some more...
Yep guilty of that as well.
 I just wanted to be exactly like her
So I began forgetting who I was and started trying to be who she was.
Even with all the reassuring from my husband that he was COMPLETELY over her
I just didn't see how he could ever love someone as ugly and as fat as me after dating her.
I would ask every one I knew would be completely honest with me even if it hurt my feelings
if she was prettier than me after showing them a picture of her.
They would always reply with a no but, I knew they were just lying.
I didn't believe anyone...
I basically ignored everything he told me he felt and kept feeling awful about  myself.

To make a long story short
and try to make it a little less complicated
(emotions are sometimes very hard to describe)
I have struggled with this feelings of hatred, jealousy, low self-worth and sadness
for years now.
These past few weeks I have realized that with my hindsight 20/20 I have completely forgotten who I am and who I was.
I need to find myself fully again.
I need to remember that I have a wonderful life right now.
I have an amazing husband who makes me laugh nearly everyday.
He knows all my faults and he still loves me unconditionally.
He would do anything for me and our son and he keeps me sane.
I also have an adorable son.
He makes me laugh and I know that when he looks at me I am the most amazing person he knows.
He's my best buddy and I love hearing his little laugh every day and I make a point to make him laugh every day just so I can hear it :)
Even though I am not super model thin
I am the smallest I have been since high school.
And as my good friend pointed out to me the other day by sending me this picture I have come a long way.

Starting today I am waging war against my bad self esteem.
Because the sexiest people are the people that are truly happy with themselves.
I am starting a 60 Day Challenge for myself that not only includes eating healthy and exercise
but, I am going to write down 5 things I like about myself everyday here on this blog.
I am going to end with my favorite song right now...because it explains perfectly how I feel.
Better posts are soon to follow:)