Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Mid-week Checkup

So today was extra rough on me
It was super stressful...
I don't do well with eating when I am stressed.
Yes, I have realized that I shouldn't eat my feelings.
I am working on that.
So the day started out so good..
I had a great workout!
I really pushed myself so hard my arms felt like rubber 
because I was punching so hard.
But the stresses of the day really got to me
crying baby 
new brakes 
registering my car
helping my husband apply for jobs
I cracked..
had a peice or two of candy...
It happens to all of us!
Even the strongest of us sometimes fall
When I give into my cravings I typically tend to shut down 
and feel really bad about myself.
I will tend to look at myself in the mirror that night and tell myself I am so fat
and that I will never get to where I want to be.
The same thing I have done for years
Being a dancer I would always feel bigger 
than all the other girls I was constantly around. 
It really did a number on my self esteem.
I would always dream that I looked like them and it only got worse
I started gaining weight the summer between my junior and senior year.
I wanted the nice body but I wasn't willing to work for it..
I  have come to realize that I wasn't fat
Something thousands of women dream of having.
I have also realized that like Dan says in Combat
"People aren't born with fantastic bodies
Fantastic bodies are made!"
I would hear the girls that I envied talk about working out
It just never sunk in..
until now.

I started working towards a great body 3 years ago 
and I am going to continue to work for that goal.
Even after I reach my goals I will continue to work to maintain it.
Its a lifestyle change not just for the here and now but for the rest of my life.
Some of you may think that
watching what I eat for the rest of my life seems like I won't be living
but, if eating healthy means that I'll live a longer and fuller life
I'll for sure be eating celery instead of cake!

Now that I have had a rough day I need to stop telling myself 
that I could never have the body I want.
Positive thinking is a big part of weight loss.
I have come a long way and I really don't have that far to go
I have committed to a lifestyle that will help me acheive my goals.
I will keep working towards them.
To start my positve thinking and to increase my self esteem
I am going to start telling myself 3 things
being either changes or parts that I like about my body
each day.
Here are my 3 things for the day:
1. I love my eyes!
 They are a great shape and size and I love making them look extra big for pictures:)
Makes me feel like I look prettier...?
2. I love my small wrists and ankles.
It reminds me that I can be a small person.
3. I love my cuves!
I love feeling like a woman!

What are your 3 things?

Monday, January 28, 2013


Mondays are always rough
Mainly because Sundays are my rest days
And me and my husband always have the best intentions of getting up at
4:30 am...
But, it never happens.
Probably because we stay up so late on Friday and Saturday
that even though we go to bed super early on Sunday night
we need makeup sleep...
Why so early you ask?
Well we are doing sort of a double workout
Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
And in order to get our 2 hour workout in
before my hubby goes to work we need to get up that early!
Here are the work outs we are doing.
Les Mills COMBAT


I am a huge fan of the beachbody workouts.
I did INSANITY earlier this year
and LOVED it!!!
But it was super killer on my knees
which were already bad because of my years of dance...
I mean I couldn't sit down without wincing
it was that bad.
I loved Insanity a lot but, I love Les Mills COMBAT
Even more!!!
Its so much fun I don't even feel like I am working out!
Let me tell you more about it...
Les Mills is a program that comes from
New Zealand.
They were famous runners...
Olympic atheletes and when they
"retired" they decided to open up a gym
They created the Les Mils Pump program which has spread everywhere!
They teach it in gyms all over the world!
And now they've created this body combat program
its basically a MMA style workout..
so you're punching and kicking
and its just so much fun!
I am usually dripping in sweat after!
We decided to add on P90X
for the weight training aspect.
Cardio is really good but the only way to
change the shape of your body you need to lift some weights.
Tony Horton bugs the crap out of me though.
So I usually silence him and pump up some music!
I know some of you may find him inspirational..
but he just doesn't do it for me...
Its probrably because he tells us its okay to hit pause.
No Tony I want you to tell me to keep pushing through!
Anyway the thing I love most about doing the beachbody workouts is...
That I get to stay home!
I highly recommend it for all Mommies out there.
I try to wake up before my baby does because working out with him 
crawling around only makes things harder.
but I love that I don't have to find a sitter or leave the house to workout.
I can do it while he is sleeping and then when he wakes up
I get to spend all the time I want with him!
I am actually going to become a beachbody coach within the next few weeks..
so hit me up if you want/need anything!
I leave you with a commercial for COMBAT!

Sunday, January 27, 2013

New beginings

This is it.
I have had this idea to start a blog for over a month now
and I am now finally getting to it.
Let me start at the beginning of my story.
I was 22 years old
AND I tipped the scale at 191 lbs.
October 2008 (I look freakin' pregnant!)

I know how I got here...
It was a lot of eating, eating, not exercising and eating.
It began when my mom got a new job while I was still in high school.
We went from having a good amount of homemade dinners
to eating out every single night.
Then I went to college where I would eat a lot of McDonald's
and ramen noodles.
While in college I was on the drill team and dance company
so I did have some exercise to keep off some of the weight.
From there I was employed at the zoo
where I ate a Granny B's sugar cookies
(4 servings with 210 cal/serving)
and a 20 oz Dr. Pepper
every morning.
That's if I had enough money to pay for it.
I also skipped a lot of breakfasts.
During those 2 years I also found a new love of energy drinks.
Then I was hired at the surgical center with IHC.
I started eating about 5 packages of Oreos
(2 per packet)
a day.
That's 10 Oreos a day!!!
On top of all of this I had moved in and out of my parents home
but had finally ended up back home and eating out every night again.
By spring 2009 I knew something had to change if I was EVER gonna be happy with myself.
My mom and I joined Weight Watchers.
Best decision I could have ever made for myself.
I lost 27 lbs by the time I met my husband.

Fast forward 1 1/2 year. My husband and I decided to have a baby.
Fast forward again 9 months...
I had a goal to only gain the minimum 25 lbs
but, unfortunatly gained nearly 40.
I wasn't so disappointed in myself
because I knew I had a whole lot of ice cream during my pregnancy.
The best was losing 20 of it the first week after having my baby!
Since then I have been fighting to lose the weight
I am happy to say that I have surpassed my prepregnancy weight!!!

Here I am now at 151 lbs.

I am not completely happy with the way I look
I know that I have come a long, long way
but I still have a long way to go.
This is why I am starting this blog.
I hope to be inspiring to other people out there struggling to lose weight
and be healthy.
I still have about 16 more pounds to lose before I hit my goal weight.
Its probably going to be THE hardest 16 lbs
to lose.
But I am committed.
Are YOU?
Lets do it together!