So today was extra rough on me
It was super stressful...
I don't do well with eating when I am stressed.
Yes, I have realized that I shouldn't eat my feelings.
I am working on that.
So the day started out so good..
I had a great workout!
I really pushed myself so hard my arms felt like rubber
because I was punching so hard.
But the stresses of the day really got to me
registering my car
helping my husband apply for jobs
had a peice or two of candy...
It happens to all of us!
Even the strongest of us sometimes fall
When I give into my cravings I typically tend to shut down
and feel really bad about myself.
I will tend to look at myself in the mirror that night and tell myself I am so fat
and that I will never get to where I want to be.
The same thing I have done for years
Being a dancer I would always feel bigger
than all the other girls I was constantly around.
It really did a number on my self esteem.
I would always dream that I looked like them and it only got worse
I started gaining weight the summer between my junior and senior year.
I wanted the nice body but I wasn't willing to work for it..
I have come to realize that I wasn't fat
I had CURVES!
Something thousands of women dream of having.
I have also realized that like Dan says in Combat
"People aren't born with fantastic bodies
Fantastic bodies are made!"
I would hear the girls that I envied talk about working out
It just never sunk in..
I started working towards a great body 3 years ago
and I am going to continue to work for that goal.
Even after I reach my goals I will continue to work to maintain it.
Its a lifestyle change not just for the here and now but for the rest of my life.
Some of you may think that
watching what I eat for the rest of my life seems like I won't be living
but, if eating healthy means that I'll live a longer and fuller life
I'll for sure be eating celery instead of cake!
Now that I have had a rough day I need to stop telling myself
that I could never have the body I want.
Positive thinking is a big part of weight loss.
I have come a long way and I really don't have that far to go
I have committed to a lifestyle that will help me acheive my goals.
I will keep working towards them.
To start my positve thinking and to increase my self esteem
I am going to start telling myself 3 things
being either changes or parts that I like about my body
Here are my 3 things for the day:
1. I love my eyes!
They are a great shape and size and I love making them look extra big for pictures:)
Makes me feel like I look prettier...?
2. I love my small wrists and ankles.
It reminds me that I can be a small person.
3. I love my cuves!
I love feeling like a woman!
What are your 3 things?