Mid-week Checkup

So today was extra rough on me

It was super stressful...

I don't do well with eating when I am stressed.

Yes, I have realized that I shouldn't eat my feelings.

I am working on that.

So the day started out so good..

I had a great workout!

I really pushed myself so hard my arms felt like rubber 

because I was punching so hard.

But the stresses of the day really got to me

crying baby 

new brakes 

registering my car

helping my husband apply for jobs

I cracked..

had a peice or two of candy...

It happens to all of us!

Even the strongest of us sometimes fall

When I give into my cravings I typically tend to shut down 

and feel really bad about myself.

I will tend to look at myself in the mirror that night and tell myself I am so fat

and that I will never get to where I want to be.

The same thing I have done for years

Being a dancer I would always feel bigger 

than all the other girls I was constantly around. 

It really did a number on my self esteem.

I would always dream that I looked like them and it only got worse

I started gaining weight the summer between my junior and senior year.

I wanted the nice body but I wasn't willing to work for it..

I  have come to realize that I wasn't fat

I had CURVES!

Something thousands of women dream of having.

I have also realized that like Dan says in Combat

"People aren't born with fantastic bodies

Fantastic bodies are made!"

I would hear the girls that I envied talk about working out

It just never sunk in..

until now.

I started working towards a great body 3 years ago 

and I am going to continue to work for that goal.

Even after I reach my goals I will continue to work to maintain it.

Its a lifestyle change not just for the here and now but for the rest of my life.

Some of you may think that

watching what I eat for the rest of my life seems like I won't be living

but, if eating healthy means that I'll live a longer and fuller life

I'll for sure be eating celery instead of cake!

Now that I have had a rough day I need to stop telling myself 

that I could never have the body I want.

Positive thinking is a big part of weight loss.

I have come a long way and I really don't have that far to go

I have committed to a lifestyle that will help me acheive my goals.

I will keep working towards them.

To start my positve thinking and to increase my self esteem

I am going to start telling myself 3 things

being either changes or parts that I like about my body

each day.

Here are my 3 things for the day:

1. I love my eyes!

 They are a great shape and size and I love making them look extra big for pictures:)

Makes me feel like I look prettier...?

2. I love my small wrists and ankles.

It reminds me that I can be a small person.

3. I love my cuves!

I love feeling like a woman!

What are your 3 things?